looking forward, looking backward

A quote given by the pastor at church last Sunday.....
It really makes you think and reflect what you have gone through in your life so far.........
To me, looking forward, looking backward........ is a really good thing to do at times....
I like to stop thinking, sit down and reflect at what happened sometimes....

I have 3 ex........ nothing to hide........ is a fact
1st 1 was long enough to teach me what a relationship is really all about after 5 and half years. Adolescence is never an easy stage in life, and thank you for being there with me, even though I decided to call it quit at the end. It is so amazing that how we actually got together (started from MIRC and ICQ, you might call me bravo, yes I am ), taking care and learning to grow up at the same time and coping with studies.
We been through dunno how many hundreds time of fights, arguments and disagreement with parents involved a few times....
I have cried, sobbed the most in this period for being hurt.
But, I have been through many happy times as well, like my lecturer used to praise YOU for being a good bf, taking care and look after me....
my friends think YOU are so caring coz I am being picked and dropped from college for breakfast, lunch, etc. and people get jealous easily
From not being recognised by the WONG family to who you are at the end in everyone's heart is never an easy jounrney for you and me.
I am grateful and really enjoyed it as YOU really made me learned so much. From being hurt to who I am today, I have learned to be tough and strong physically and emotionally after the relationship ended. I choose to forgive you as it is just hard and silly to hate someone. The person who is hating will live unhappily as well......

2nd one,not that long, half a year perhaps....
I dunno what went wrong, things just died down after a while....
To me, there is no commitment, probably that's why. After all, till this age, now, I still believe that there is nothing yet to be committed unless you are getting married and foreseeing he/she to be your life partner. Afterall, come to think of it, how many years will you get to be together till you get married. Obviously, no one can guarantee whether it will work or not.... is just RISK .......
and how much tolerance you give yourself to bear the risk....

3rd one, 1 month plus..... I am very glad to meet you. You drive like a hoon (had a Kompressor Merz), like the 1st ex (had modified Satria and Mazda RX-7, Hyundai Sonata)...... and that's how I drive today as well....I still remember after getting my license, my parents did not come with me, the 1st round I got out to Semanbu freeway, I was driving at 140km/h with me ex behind me.... and we race each other.
I admit that I do like to drive fast, I will most probably speed like crazy if I know there is no police on road... but too bad, it never work like that here in OZ. I know my own limit, so don't you people worry. My mum and dad used to tell the 1st one, dun drive so fast ya because it only took us 2 and half hours or less to get back from Kuantan to Subang's house... and we never really bother. He is such a safe driver... for I know, is just we people driving fast, that's all.... even my elder bro does that.
It adds some joy while driving as we often travel on road..

YOU who came from a different culture.....
Different kind of charmness, careness and lovingness compared to Asian....

After writing all this, poeple might think I am a play girl???
All I could say is, I haven't found the Mr Perfect Right....
Maybe I have too high expectation for what I went through like my aunt and mummy always say.... YES I probably am, but I know GOD saves me the perfect one.....

my quote: Do I care???
Zac Tiller knows me well.... and he will answer you sausage, "probably not"!!
Maybe I will look back at this post when I am old one day, I will never regret my choice and it helps to widen up my horizons, make me a better person and enriched my life!~

I do believe children who grown up in single family do need a lot of love, shower them with love and be with them~~ that's what I found and learned with the past.

:)